In the time of chimpanzees I was a monkey
Butane in my veins so I’m out to cut the junkie
With the plastic eyeballs, spray paint the vegetables
Dog food stalls with the beefcake pantyhose
Kill the headlights and put it in neutral
Stock car flamin’ with a loser and the cruise control
Baby’s in Reno with the vitamin D

Got a couple of couches sleep on the love seat
Someone keeps sayin’ I’m insane to complain
About a shotgun wedding and a stain on my shirt
Don’t believe everything that you read
You get a parking violation and a maggot on your sleeve
So shave your face with some mace in the dark
Savin’ all your food stamps and burnin’ down the trailer park

Soy un perdedor
I’m a loser baby so why don’t you kill me?

Soy un perdedor
I’m a loser baby, so why don’t you kill me?

Forces of evil in a bozo nightmare
Banned all the music with a phony gas chamber
Cause one’s got a weasel and the other’s got a flag
One’s got on the pole shove the other in a bag
With the rerun shows and the cocaine nose job

The daytime crap with the folksinger slop
He hung himself with a guitar string
Slap the turkey neck and it’s hangin’ from a pigeon wing
You can’t write if you can’t relate
Trade the cash for the beef for the body for the hate
And my time is a piece of wax fallin’ on a termite
Who’s chokin’ on the splinters

Soy un perdedor
I’m a loser baby so why don’t you kill me?
(Get crazy with the Cheeze Whiz)

Soy un perdedor
I’m a loser baby so why don’t you kill me?
(Drive-by body pierce)

Soy
(I’m a driver I’m a winner things are gonna change I can feel it)

Soy un perdedor
I’m a loser baby so why don’t you kill me?
(I can’t believe you)

Soy un perdedor
I’m a loser baby so why don’t you kill me?

Soy un perdedor
I’m a loser baby so why don’t you kill me?
Sprechen Sie Deutche, baby)

Soy un perdedor
I’m a loser baby so why don’t you kill me?
(Know what I’m sayin’?)

12 days to-go. Yes that’s 12 days to go until I am due to give birth. We’re gonna be parents. This time last year we were lying on a beach on Koh Samui; Oh how times have changed.

Will it be a boy or a girl? What are we going to name her/him? The jury is still very much out on that one.

Will my birth ‘plan’ (and I say plan in the loosest of terms) play out? i.e. I’ll just get in the pool and take some gas and air and see how it goes from there…

Will my baby be okay? Who will they look like? And will they really have a load of fuzz on top of their head as pointed out by the lovely lady who conducted my last scan?

My hospital bag is packed, the nursery is ready and GB is carrying around 2 spare fully charged battery packs for his phone in readiness for ‘the phone call’.  His tone of voice is already a juxtaposition terror and calm every time he answers me. We’re ready; ready as we’ll ever be anyway.

Today (25th July)  I’m mostly waiting for the carpenter to fit the shelving in the living room / making the most of my one month free trial of Amazon Prime. Oh and listening to Radio X; thinking this is definitely something I need to include on my ‘what do to whilst in labour’ list. There’s only 2 things on said list as yet; breathe and try not to squeeze GB’s hand too hard.

On a lighter note, here’s a link to the baby bag I’ve finally chosen. After hours of searching I have finally found one that is a) not naff and b) quite bloody chic if I do say so myself! I love it. Review to come…

http://www.iambeau.com/baby-changing-bags/isabelle-black-canvas-hospital-bag

 

 

LKW x

 

 

 

 

 

Dr. Fred Luskin holds a PhD in counselling and health psychology from Stanford University, where he is the cofounder and director of the Stanford Forgiveness Project. He’s a pioneer in the burgeoning forgiveness field, and it appears he’s onto something. Study after study has found that forgiving is good for the body as well as the soul.

Luskin describes the concepts of forgiveness as simple – It’s its execution that we seem to find difficult.

I’d describe the concept of forgiveness as necessary. It’s what keeps our love flowing, our hearts racing and our inner peace intact. We’re only human after all. And anything that is good for the body as well as the soul sounds like a winner to me.

He goes on to say that forgiveness can, in fact, lower blood pressure and heart rate and reduce levels of depression, anxiety, and anger. People who forgive generally have more and better relationships with others, feel happier and more hopeful, and score higher on just about every measure of psychological well-being.

That being said, it isn’t easy. Getting past hurt, betrayal, disloyalty can have a serious impact on your metal well-being in both a personal and professional capacity. Luskin believes that forgiveness is a ‘trainable’ skill that is innate in all of us…Here’s hoping.

Some ‘mistakes’ can be seen as ‘bigger’ than others. It could be the misplaced apostrophe, the ‘I didn’t know you were expecting’ comment to a woman in work or the betrayal of trust by a loved one. If a relationship means enough to you, you’ll forgive. It’s about the understanding and empathy of another being. About love and courage. Are you strong enough to move and focus on the bigger picture? On your future? On your life?

Luskin says that forgiveness is about you and no one else. In its outcome, yes. But in order to reap its benefits then to start you must start to think about how and why people do the things they do. It doesn’t mean that you have to give in; on the contrary. Whether you’re feeling let down, grieving, mouring, or self deprecating, the only way to overcome those feelings is to ultimately realise what makes you really happy. The more that we realise that holding on to the past, negative experiences in particular, without forgiveness, can result in a bitter and resentful mind set, the better. Think about what is right for you in the long term. Is falling out with someone really worth it?

Isn’t life too short?

Of course, it’s also about having the strength, respect and humility to accept other people’s decisions regarding forgiveness. As hard as it may seem, isn’t it worth it in the long run?

You only live once. Sorry, I mean #YOLO

To find out more about Dr. Luskin and his studies on forgiveness visit: http://www.learningtoforgive.com

 

Exploring new places can open the mind and nurture the soul. It doesn’t always have to be too far from you doorstep either. This weekend I travelled to Laugharne, a quaint and very pretty town in the heart of Carmarthenshire, West Wales.

It’s probably best known as the home of Welsh writer and poet, Dylan Thomas, or, as he called it “the strangest town in Wales”…I’d say it’s up there with the the friendliest, or would that be prettiest…